Sunday, November 30, 2008

sunday angst

so completed stopped thinking about that whole work thing during the weekend, (YEAH! certainly didn't want to be stressing over should i or shouldn't i) but it's Sun night. catch that? sunday night is the night of angst no matter what; on any old regular week, it's angst over stupid things like i have to get up early tomorrow, i have to go to work all week, silly but still manages to make it difficult for me to fall asleep.

tonight i will have more angst, the possible job offer will definitely be swirling through my head. maybe i'll just take a vicodin...& a couple shots of vodka, that might help.

oh & then there's that whole trip thing - which is a WHOOHOO on one hand, but yet also troublesome. when B was speaking to his mom yesterday she asked if we were already packed!!!!! WTF? seriously, she does NOT know us one bit!

our boat leaves port next Sat but we plan on heading out of town Fri night, so that means we're packing Fri afternoon....while still washing some clothing.

oh yeah & i told B we needed to get all of our online christmas shopping done this weekend. guess how much was accomplished, here i'll save you the trouble, it was a big fat -0-! Everyone, expect a muneca (doll), huaraches (leather sandals), or a mocahete (mortar & pestle) for christmas, there we are done!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Thanksgiving 2008

funny, seems like we were talking about last year's thanksgiving just the other day...oh yeah, we did....

the plan was to go over to a friend's house so the kiddley-dinks could play & we could eat....a lot. we had our list of stuff to prepare & before we knew the morning had escaped us, we were in rush mode, then we got a phone call that their power had gone out! had been out for 1/2 an hour! geez, we thought this kinda crap only happened to us? it worked out though, just bought everyone a little extra time, our schedule was pushed back about an hour.

we had appetizers galore. my spinach artichoke dip was ok (i used the one from staceys pita chips), next time i'll either try the non-vinegar artichokes, or maybe i'll look for the claim jumper recipe because that's THE BEST. they made the turkey, it was falling off the bone (not complaining, it was yummy). B made his fantastic stuffing, then lots of sides, salads & all kinds of good stuff!

i also made chocolate chip cookies, a 2nd round of oatmeal cookies, this time with peanut butter chips & some fudge (which is a story in itself, but trust me, just go to the eagle brand website, theirs' is great & easy).
i suppose you are wondering about the pumpkin pie....crust & i are not friends, it was a fricken beast, i have a new found respect for my mother. she does have superpowers & they are all used for crust making. i followed her recipe for the crust & the pumpkin, it was ok, maybe even good, but it wasn't my mom's...she's holding out on me, i know it.

it was a good day spent with friends, can't ask for more than that right?

i have many things to be thankful for, i am blessed.
Happy Thanksgiving Allbuddies! (that's Z-speak for everybody)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

movie news: twilight

on weds afternoon Z's class went to see a movie & B & I got out of work early so we decided to take advantage of the already paid for babysitter & went to see twilight. i haven't read any of the books, saw the preview sometime ago & for the most part only know what little bits i've read on a few other blogs, so i wasn't too sure about what to expect.

i am a sucker for vampire movies. brahm stoker's dracula with gary oldman & winona rider i liked the idea of a love story that transcends time. anne rice's interview with a vampire with moody tom cruise & emotional brad pitt, who can forget little kristen dunst's "i want more"? so when i saw the preview for twilight, can we go with i was intrigued with the new option?

yes, edward.

when B & I walked into the theater he told me he'd mentioned to a co-worker that we were going to see this movie & the guy said he wouldn't go see it because it was a chic flick. that idea hadn't even crossed my mind (i thought - new vampire movie, i must watch) & for a minute there i was concerned B might not like the movie, but then i remembered sometimes he likes chick flicks more than i do.

i liked the movie. it was more of a chick flick than a vampire movie; there was no gore, but i liked it. B told me although he was the one eating cheeseburgers, i was the one smacking my lips in the movie (& here i thought i had completely maintained my composure...oh well). the kissing scene between edward & bella reminded me of back in the day when kisses were BE ALL END ALL AMAZING.

what i didn't like about the movie, i felt it lacked depth. i realize edward & bella are the main characters, but it still seemed rather shallow. i don't know if that's the case with the book as well, it could be that's how they did the movie to keep within time constraints. i'm considering reading the book just to find out if the book has more details, but am afraid to be disappointed as i've read the book is a quick read.

the other thing i didn't like about the movie is edward's skin is supposed to glisten, shine, look like marble...something along those lines, in the sun. anyhoo, in the movie, they did the most fake cheapass special effects of walmart glitter, didn't work for me.

i'll be buying twilight when it comes out on dvd & edward is now cordially invited to the island...

Thanksgiving 2007

yeah, i'm a little late on this post...sue me. i needed some time, then i forgot about it, so here's what i can remember of it now:

we drove out to LV visited with fam there for about an hour. we got a late start as B was really sick & needed to sleep in. after 3/4's of the drive there completed, B realized how drugged up & sleepy he was so he pulled over & i drove the rest of the way. oh & we stopped somewhere & the middle of death valley & bought B 2 packages of the oldest gum on earth.

on the plane descent in chicago he broke out in a cold sweat from the pain in his ears. B's mom picked us up at the airport, it was the middle of the night & it was raining - awesome! we mostly hung out at her house beings B was sick. we went to Uncle R (his not mine who's desceased, duh) & Aunt P's house for thanksgiving dinner, lots of family & food.

Z fell in love with a young female cousin (by marriage) & that's where things went bad. this was the first time Z was exerting his independence & he was an absolute little shit to me. when we were around other people he was horrible, but when it was just us, he was sweet to me again.

B's grandma also turned 90 when we were there & we had another family gathering. i didn't know it was her birthday; but B's mom had a gift for us to give her, which was really nice yet at the same time i felt like i was 12 (that's my problem though, i know her heart was in the right place). again Z acted up, it was very strange. he went so far as to say i was teaching him to be bad & Poppa was teaching him to be good - it was infuriating.

B's mom wanted to take us out to parade one night but we didn't want to go. partially because B was sick, partially because we have become the biggest homebodies who have a really hard time leaving a sofa & partially because it's really fricken cold in chicago, especially at night! as any parent should, we used Z as an excuse & said he couldn't handle the cold & he would make our lives miserable in 10 minutes (which is more than likely true).

the flight home, short fam visit in LV & drive home were uneventful as far as i can remember. but i can say not that long ago Z said something about the sausage we had when we visited grandma & i just kinda went along with hey, we were in chicago, i'm sure sausage was eaten at some point right? then he says "on the plane", wow, good memory kid!

just say no

lately Z has been giving out more than his fair share of attitude, so we've had to put him in check often. he's the type of child that is constantly pushing the threshold, always checking the gate, looking for holes in the fence; once he's found a weak link, he'll wear it down & come barreling through & you won't even know what hit you or where you went wrong because it was just a wee little weak spot. harmless right? with some kids yes, with Z NO.

anyhoo, yes, lots of talk lately about attitude & tone & i'm not having it, you're pissing me off, cut it out.

so i'm walking down the hallway & i pass Z & here him say "say no to attitude, say no to attitude" - hahahaha! he made up his own song! & also, that whole say no to drugs thing, yeah, that helped, but right now we're more concerned about the attitude but thanks for the lead in!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

feeling coyote ugly

i got an email on monday morning from old boss, higher up & i will talk sometime next week. i haven't heard from higher up yet, good. i haven't contacted him either.

i hear "the devil went down to georgia" in the back of my head these days.

i'm still quite unsure of what to do. it's a great opportunity for me, but old boss, ICK. i finally made the correlation the other day, he's like a slumlord but instead of properties, he does jobs; he finds people in need & takes advantage of their situation.
even if he wouldn't be my boss, i would be witness to his actions & that would repulse me enough.

when i spoke with him the other day & he was referring to my friend who previously held the position he said "in her little asian mind" - it burned me to the core. even if she wasn't my friend, UGH!!!!! my mom keeps telling me small town, small mind, but it's just not an excuse! he forgets how often that "little asian mind" has saved his ass!

bakers we are

my mom & i are the bakers in the family. she does cakes & pies & i do cookies. we used to go all out crazy. i remember one year she made around 8 pies, the required carrot cake & i made about 6 types of cookies. i guess we were trying to make the entire family diabetic. my aunt keeps her house really warm & that year a bunch of the goodies got moldy & had to be thrown out. we never went all out like that again.

i continued making cookies for work on a regular basis though. it was something i enjoyed doing even though i was working day, schooling nights. then one day one of the guys said i made "good dough" because i liked my cookies soft & he liked his crispy & he went so far as to put a few in the toaster oven to cook them further. to that i said f-you & never made cookies for them again, not even for holidays.

i just started baking again over the past couple of years. i'm really out of sync, forgotten most of my tricks, so things are hit & miss. i mean it's hard to screw up a cookie, so they aren't bad, they just aren't what they used to be.

with that being said, i woke up sunday morning & realized it was the weekend before thanksgiving & i hadn't planned any holiday desserts. oopsie, i guess cookie trays aren't happening this year. i did manage to make a batch of oatmeal with chocolate chip cookies though, that's a start. so here's the list what i plan on making next: regular choc. chip cookies with pecans, peanut butter cookies, fudge & i'm going to go crazy & try making a pumpkin pie with crust from scratch!

i called mom & got her recipe for the crust, which is basically like this nifty one M found for me (THANKS), just mom adds a bit of sugar to it; & she also gave me some tips on her pumkin stuff. we'll see how this goes.

stupid clock

my coffee is cold & the english muffin i had for breakfast is wearing thin so i look at the clock - is it too early for me to be hungry for lunch already?

the clock says 11:15, that's not bad right?
i sometimes have lunch at 11:30...

then i realize the clock wasn't changed for daylight savings, it's just after 10am.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


i finally started feeling better about 6pm yesterday. i think i may have had a slight reaction to the numbing stuff from the dental work or a major reaction to talking with old boss.

can one really be allergic to assholes?
possibly...& if that's the case, working near him would probably not be a good idea.

i didn't receive a phone call from the next higher up to discuss things & i was much pleased about that. i was not in a state to take on such things, no self control, more than likely would have revealed many things about old boss to his boss that would have not been a good idea.

i'm pretty sure the talk with old boss did not go the way he planned. i think he was expecting me to jump at any opportunity he presented. he absolutely has no concept of how unhappy i was there....& the poor pay was just a fraction of it.

when i left the soils place i remember OC-D saying i just had a low tolerance for assholes. it's such a shame that i can't put that on my resume....

Friday, November 21, 2008

RIP Uncle M - part II

i was unsure what to do after my Uncle M died. i didn't want to just get flowers, beautiful yes, but short-lived; i wanted something that had more significance, more meaning, more tangible.

in the middle of the night it came to me - the headstone.

i spoke to my aunt a few times nonchalantly asking her about it, not revealing my intention. this was going to be difficult for her, another final step of the grieving process, letting go, full of pain & tears.

i called the frye chapel & asked them how could i go about it, but they said they couldn't take a deposit until she selected a stone. so i asked if i could leave my name & number to call me when she came in & left it at that. i don't like leaving things like that in someone else's hands, i know things fall through the cracks. i left a post-it in on my monitor & looked at it often wondering if i should call back.

yesterday i got a message from the frye chapel that my aunt had been in & made her selection. i called this morning & thanked the woman so much for remembering me & my message & contacting me. my aunt paid most of the fee with cash & left a credit card # for the balance, i gave the woman my info & asked her to use my credit card instead.


Z catch up

it's shortly after 8am but i'm ready for bed. i'm exhausted.
besides all the medical bs, that thankfully is nothing really serious but still, there was/is this old boss stuff to consider (which is a huge emotional draw for me), we also had Z's parent teacher conference & the past 3 days Z has gotten UNhappy faces from school - GASP, i know!

ok, i guess not so much after beings suspended from 1st grade...whatever.
it's those darn girls, they MAKE him chase them. poor, poor Shuppa, HAS to chase those naughty girls. well, at least he's not punching anyone, or should i say he hasn't been caught punching anyone.

so here's the report card summary, to start off with there were no 3s. (3s mean the child excels (97+%) & probably shouldn't even be in that grade, so should it be part of the scale?????? hmm??? sorry, that's just my over-achieving self wanting high marks)

oops he did get one 3 on "returns completed homework" but that's because i'm on his butt to do it & make sure it gets in his backpack thurs pm.

the areas where he got 1s were all writing, punctuation, spelling, comprehension stuff. he also had a little slip on writing by 2s & 10s, but i know he can do that so he probably was having a bad day or something. oh & he also got a 1 on class participation, what can i say, he's mine, we participate by being present.

what more do you want? no, seriously?

we ARE doing you a favor by being quiet.
the forked tongue is a dominant trait so be careful of which you ask.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

meeting with old boss

the dentist discovered i had not just a cracked filling but a cracked i guess i truly am cracked. anyhoo, yeah got that fixed then headed over to meet boss after a few rounds of numbing agent, so yes i was drooling & spitting as i spoke!

he told me a little background about how things went down after my friend left, about how the new chick didn't work out & why they thought i would. he couldn't tell me specifics of the job beings he doesn't know them, but could tell me the job would be supervised by corp (not him), that some travel to sd would be expected (quite a bit initially for training, then monthly or so thereafter).

one concern is that they want someone long term, as in 3 to 5 years. i'm ok with it here in bfe, but down in sd that's too far of a drive. i'm not willing to do a 2 hour commute (one way) on a daily basis for any amount of pay. i asked if beings i would be doing the job from here not sd, if it was considered remote & he said it was, but didn't make the connection i was getting at - can i do it from home in sd?

of course he tried to lowball the pay, that was expected; then he said he didn't really know & couldn't say beings it was a corporate position. i told him i had looked up payscales online & gave him a bottom line. so then he bumped the amount up a couple of $$ & said "that would be more than what you're making now...right?" it is but i lied & said no.

in one way that was really difficult for me, i hate to lie (here it goes, yup, my justification for it) but in another way, old boss will never be forgiven for being such a cheapskate tightwad *&(*&*(&*&!!! he even told me he knew i left over money.

then i asked how things were going with my replacement as far as her office (MS) skills. he said she was coming along but could use some additional coaching. i explained to him that if i came back i wouldn't have a problem with that, but i wanted to be sure that his work went directly to her first. i want her to have a chance first to figure it out, to try things, that i don't want everything coming directly to me because i can do it faster.

so the sector manager is going to call me next, we have quite a few things to discuss.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


last night i spoke with my old co-worker & got a little info, then discussed things with B. this is big, there's lots of potential for things to be really good or really bad. B suggested i write it all down. duh, i'm the writer & i didn't think of that instead i was blabbering on & on about things.

this morning i decided i would make my list of concerns about the new position....& i forgot pretty much everything i said last night. crap! i had the list going all day long & only have like 5 items. i also reviewed all my old blog posts to see if i could find anything really bad, but i never went into detail about anything. but i did discover i never made the post about last thanksgiving - talk about being on top of things, oops!

then my other co-worker friend called (oh yes she did! - yeah!). SHE was helpful. she definitely thinks i can do the job. she even suggested that if i can do it from here, i might as well try to do it from home! mainly so i wouldn't have to see boss everyday! she agreed the biggest obstacle is old boss...can i handle him?

rules, we're gonna have to have some rules around here!

i'm so glad she called, i missed talking to her. we also got to catch up on a few things. so tomorrow i have work, leave early for a dental appt, then go met old boss while i'm drugged up still. i need to make more progress on my list though. i wish B would have said something sooner!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

somebody pick me up off the floor please-II

sorry about a 3rd post for the day, but shit is going DOWN!

ok, remember THAT!!??!!!

well i just got an e-mail from a friend saying something was coming my way.

scratch that, as i was typing above i got the call. yup, old boss called. replacement didn't work out, he wants to talk to me about being the sector analyst. i could work it from here & possibly keep it if/when we move back to sd! WOW!

B says i should rake him over the coals for pay....ahhhhh, then put something in there about how he can't talk to me directly, we have to have a liason, that would help (because old boss could really be an ass sometimes).

anyways, yeah, lots to think about. could i? would i? should i?

i told friend i would call her tonight for details (i wasn't expecting the call from old boss so quickly). i meet with old boss on thurs after work. this will be interesting if nothing else....

back to medical

today i had a scheduled appt to have a couple moles removed. i had the screening done back in may but just got around to the actual removal part. so yeah, handsome, i mean Mr. Long, was there & he took care of me (not that way! he took my vitals) then i went back to see the dr.

she looked me over & picked out 6 moles she wanted to remove. WHAT - i thought we were doing 2? then after looking me over even further she decides i am just a spotty person & it would be best to start with 1 - THANK YOU. especially beings i did not know what i had in store for me.

i didn't realize what a procedure this was going to be; i was expecting something on the order of having a wart frozen off the skin, no big deal, right? wrong. handsome escorted me to another room with a table for me to lay on & next to it trayS with scalpelS, syringeS, stackS of gauze, bottles of clear liquid - wtf?

so they do all the prepping & covering & laying everything everywhere & she asks if it's ok if handsome gives me the lidocane, sure. um, he's not good at that. she instructs him for the second round & it hurts more. she tests for numbness & when he leaves she gives me some more, painlessly.

once he returns she asks me if i'm ready & i say yes, then i ask "what am i doing this myself?" (i'm also thinking in the back of my head how happy i am that the mole isn't on my butt or something beings handsome is present for the entire thing.) she does what we're there for & puts it in the sample cup & calls it "cute" - ick, it's a chunk of my flesh.

unfortunately we also discovered that i'm a bleeder, i guess a big time bleeder. she even left the room for awhile & had handsome put pressure on my arm because it wasn't slowing down. (did you get that? yeah, lots of alone time with handsome, how come this shit never happened when i was single?)

eventually she returns to stitch me up but beings she's afraid i'm going to start bleeding again, she only gives me 1 stitch. once all that's done i finally look at the back of my arm & there's a big fricken hole in it! seriously, i've seen smaller nostrils. she told me to come back next week to check on it & take the stitch out.

i told her i had an appt scheduled next week anyway. what i didn't say was that it was for a pap - handsome is NOT ALLOWED to sit in on that one!


YEAH, C had her babies yesterday!
that wasn't a typo - it is 'ies'. just after 11 am Luci (5lb ??oz) & Eli (4lb 13oz) were borned-ed (as Z would say).
mom & babies are happy & healthy.
babies have a slight respiratory concern, so they are being carefully monitored & had to stay in the nursery overnight.

Monday, November 17, 2008

movie news - Get Smart

i never watched the old tv series, at young age i couldn't stand maxwell smart, he just pissed me off & was annoying. my co-worker let me borrow her copy of Get Smart otherwise i'm sure i wouldn't have never bothered with it. steve carrell did a great job in 40 year old virgin, so i was willing to see the new & improved maxwell smart...for free.

i enjoyed it. anne hathaway was beautiful as always & the rock was good in his part. (sorry, but in my world he will always be that & i don't watch wrestling.) anyhoo, it would be worth the rental price, had a few good laughs. definitely have seen worse.

oh, & we re-watched august rush, B wanted to see it again & i certainly wasn't going to put up a fight to watch jrm again (twist my arm).

painting hell

on friday while Z was at school we cleaned out the garage, not because it was dirty or anything (although it was) but because we needed the space. we bought the paint for the computer room probably 6 months ago but have managed to procrastinate putting it on the walls this long. see in order to paint the computer room we had to move everything out of there & we had to have somewhere to put it all (other than the front yard, yes we live in ghetto house but i don't really want to prove it to everyone driving by).

last weekend we painted the hallway, nothing special a shade of white but it's probably the cleanest those walls have been...EVER! i also painted the baseboards & doorframes; once i get a paintbrush in my hand i don't stop painting until my hand cramps from holding it.

we finally got the room emptied & painted but it was getting dark so when we looked at it sun am we saw all the spots we missed. even with the spotty coverage the room looked SO much better than the crappy orange we put on there when we first moved in. it was supposed to be something on the order of peaches & cream but ended up being electrifying orange that could blind someone not wearing appropriate protective eyewear. it took me a long time to convince B that yes, it really was THAT ugly. it's now a medium shade of brown that almost looks like suede & makes you kinda want to rub yourself on the walls just to check if it's soft like that.

i also painted the baseboards in there & now we have to paint the bookshelf, nightstand & re-do the desk - fun, fun. guess what we're doing next weekend & any moment there's a spark of energy during the week?

Friday, November 14, 2008

called JC

i wasn't sure what kind of reception i would get, but i called him.
i could hear his smile, that was good.

we played catch up on spouse's & kids; his wife is a teacher now, she used to sub back in the day, his kids - 1 in college & 1 in hs, i was expecting 1 in hs & 1 in jr high (time really does fly). then he told me about his new job & how bad things were at the soils co. i only know about 5 people in that office now, everyone else has either left or been laid off.

he also told me he had been contacted by another office-mate (DD) who had left a few years prior to me, hopefully we can get an e-mail string together & be in contact again.

i'm glad i made the call.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

chapters-soils co

i remember when i was a kid my mom asking me if i recognized chapters in my life & even at a young age, i could. i was contacted by an old friend (RB) from my first real job, as in career-like job. i worked at the soils company for over 10 years. i started a couple of months before i turned 21 & left about 6 months after having Z (31). i grew up there, i went through a lot of changes, i helped my mom buy a condo, i met B, B & I moved in together, B & I got married & bought a house, i finished college, i got pregnant & had a baby, i survived being a single mom while B was in Japan for 13 months, i made a lot of friends.

i liked my job & hated it all at the same time. i enjoyed the work & the people (except for the hag, but more about her later), but at the end felt like i couldn't grow anymore, that i would always be seen as the 21 year old they first met. i felt like my efforts weren't realized & therefore could never be rewarded. i remember asking for a raise at one point & being told it wouldn't be right for an admin assist to be paid equal to an entry level geologist or engineer. although i had a BS degree, i had years more of experience than the entry level geo/eng who were fresh out of school, i ran the office, i took care of the H/R, reconciled the AP, took care of the billing & harrassed clients that didn't pay their bills.

i was also the lead engineer's (JC) right arm, which used to be a good thing, but when B was gone & i was learning how to be a mom, taking care of Z & being someone's right arm combined with everything else was more than i could handle. i knew after all that time i had to leave. i didn't leave on the best of terms. i broke down & JC & I had an argument (a shouting match really) about something i no longer remember but i do recall crying in the bathroom at work afterwards.

so RB called to ask me if he could pass my # on to another office friend who will be in the area for the next couple of weeks working. he also told me JC was leaving the company, RB already had. the tanking housing market has really taken a toll on the company, i left at it's peak with almost 130 employees, they are now down to less than 40 & praying to survive the winter.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

men's bathroom, round 2

in my haste i accidently left out one of the highlights from the mc ball.

yeah, walked into the men's room - AGAIN. of course it was accidental & although it wasn't as interesting as last year's episode, it carries it's own worth. i am in my dress & all princess-like but evidently that whole trailer park thing follows me wherever i go, dammit.

this year i didn't have Z to blame, i mean to use as an excuse, whatever.
anyways, yes, so i go to the bathroom, it's the same place the ball has been for the previous 2 years & i know where the bathroom is. i walk in & don't even notice the urinals on the wall, walk right past them, get all the way to the back of the room to the only stall (thinking, hmmm, isn't that weird that there's only 1 stall? i distinctly remember 2 stalls & isn't it strange that the lady's room is empty? that NEVER happens! how lucky i am!)

then i notice the seat up....

um, whaaaat????? (lost & confusion swirling through my head)

then i look over & notice the line of urinals that i completely ignored
(shit, shit, shit, no i didn't do it AGAIN!!!!! yes, i did, in a fricken princessy gown at that, nice!)

& now in a completely matrix-like delusion the door to exit the men's room is like 100 feet away (i guess i had too many jello shots after all).

thankfully at no point in time was a man in the bathroom & i didn't notice if anyone saw the princess walk out of the men's room. i did go confess to C afterwards & told her i would need her accompaniment to future bathroom visits as this never happened in the past. i don't care that you're pregnant & it's hard for you to get up out of your chair, i KNOW you have to pee.

in other humbling news: during the cake cutting ceremony part of the ball the first piece of cake is shared by the oldest & youngest marine...the youngest was born in 1989 & that was just plain mean! (B & I graduated in '89)

icky but funny

i was hoping yesterday's events wouldn't unfold in a blog-worthy manner, however it was quite funny & after all one of the main reasons i started this blog is my horrible memory & i needed somewhere to document everything. with that being said, carry on if you dare...

yesterday when i got up to leave work for lunch i noticed i felt a bit weird. when i got home i went to the bathroom & noticed not only were my panties wet but even my pants were a bit damp (but not in the sexy kind of way). needless to say i was alarmed, i hadn't felt anything escaping from anywhere, this has never happened before & i didn't know the the 'f' was going on. i asked B to check to make sure i wasn't just imagining it, he confirmed. then we discussed was it from the front or the back? well it couldn't be the back, you mean the middle? i don't know!

i went back to work & shortly thereafter they let us out early for the impending holiday & i decided to go by medical to talk to my dr. i was at a complete loss at what was going on & didn't know what to look up on the internet so i was hoping a discussion with her would give me some clues. as i drove there i pondered the possibility of her not being there, then what? i mean, i'm sure the person at the desk will ask me what's wrong & if i would like to speak to someone else? how do i answer that? do i just tell them i wet my pants? i think, but i'm not sure?

i get there & still unsure the heck i'm going to do if my dr isn't there & go up to the desk & realize there was another uncomfortable factor i hadn't considered. um, yeah, the guy at the desk whom i have to get past to see my dr, who was young, tall, handsome. ok, strikingly handsome & what he didn't have in dark he more than made up for in hair, face, eyes & voice....& here i am with my wet pants (but not in the sexy kind of way) story.

he tells me my dr is in & to write down what i need to discuss with her. thankful for that prepping in the car i wrote down the ambiguous yet gives enough info to ward of any further questions "female issues", then added "possible bladder infection"; he told me to come back for an appt at 3 after speaking with her.

i return at 3 & handsome calls me back for the specs (height, weight, temp, blood pressure), in the process i notice the name tag on his shirt "Long" - seriously! he tells me my bp is elevated (i'm sure it happens with many females in his presence as well as some males).

shortly thereafter i go in to see the dr. initially she thought it was just ovulation, but i told her i didn't think it was that, i've felt that & even an egg drop, that was not what was going on here. then she felt my abdominal area & just the pressure of the stethescope on my lower left pelvic area was uncomfortable so she ordered a urinalysis. the lab guy assumed it was a pregnancy test (why does everyone think i'm pregnant?) the results came back negative but she decided with the sensitivity & how many times i had gone to the bathroom that day to prescribe some antibotics, so we'll see how things go.

Monday, November 10, 2008

movie news - Madagascar 2 & August Rush

wah wah WAH! - Rachel McAdams & Ryan Gosling (the notebook) are kaput (again)! dang if they aren't the cutest couple ever & if that isn't just the hottest kiss ever!

we went to see Madagascar 2 this weekend. it was alright. i can't get enough of chris rock saying "crack a lackin'"; david schwimmer as a hypochondriac is just perfect & jada, well she will always be "peaches" to me.

we also saw august rush that co-worker let me borrow. it was good. the story was interesting & it involved a lot of music so i was intrigued & well, shall we talk about jonathan rhys meyers? (can we say - dancing, screaming, itching, squealing, fevered, feeling hot, hot, hot? btw, thank you robert smith)

although i've never made an official 'island list', julian casablancas from the strokes would be there & now jonathan is invited. i know, julian isn't the sexiest guy out there, but his voice, well what can i say...

Sunday, November 9, 2008

going to be a rock star

Z was doing a little shake & i asked him if he was dancing he said no, but he was practicing because he might want to be a rock star. so i explained to him that if he was going to be a rock star, that meant he was going to be in a rock band & in order to be in a rock band you had to play an instrument or sing, or both. he said he knew, that he was going to play guitar.

luckily vh1 was showing greatest songs of the 80s, so we had music appreciation evening.
the governator is threatening to cut school funding even more so where else is my kid going to learn about good music? i don't remember learning about the clash at school? & i wasn't introduced to motley crue until i was in 6th grade (& i thought vince was a chick).

oh, & B walked in as the cure came on (just like heaven) & i told him if they are ever in concert again, we are going. this morning he asked "the cure? or the cult?" - either, both!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

mc ball 2009

the ball was fun, not exceptionally, but we'ven learned to go in with low expectations & that way end up having a better time. C (pregnant friend) wow, was totally pregnant. i remember people telling me i looked like i had swallowed a watermelon whole, yup, she looked like that too. as far as i know, she hasn't delivered though.

last year at the ball they had shrimp for an appetizer, so you can only guess at how surprised i was when i thought i was biting into a jalepeno popper only to discover it was a mini-corndog! um, yeah, that almost $100 we spent on dinner & i'm eating a corndog? yes, please, i DO need another jello-shooter after that! & there was no cheesecake dessert bar either, where did they spend that $$, i have yet to determine.

the dress was beautiful. the shoes, nice to look at but evidently they were purchased out of the S&M section of Penny's that i didn't even know existed. i almost purchased a different pair of heels but they were probably 4" & i was afraid i wouldn't be able to carry them off so i went with shorter heels that had a bed of tacks - much better. B looked great in his uniform with all the shiny medals making noise with every step he took.

one the music started B was ready to head home though. i told him we had to stick around for at least a couple of songs, but we were home shortly after 11. Little one was still up, running around, eating candy, not even in his jammies. so i told him to finish what he had, brush his teeth & change. i went in after him & found chocolate on his toothbrush, sign of good night. i read to him & although he appeared quite alert (from the sugar rush no doubt), i laid next to him, put our cheeks together, sang "momma loves her baby" & caressed his other cheek, he was out within seconds.

the next morning he told me he dreamt about rats biting him.

Friday, November 7, 2008

ball tonight

i wasn't all that excited about tonight's ball, hohum, just another one, our last one. i only have a few friends in bfe & only a couple that are marine corp wives. one moved back to ny some time ago & the only one that's left is 12 months pregnant. ok, she's not an elephant, she's not 12 mos she's almost 35 weeks, but she's carrying twins so you can only imagine how big (& uncomfortable) she is.

i got out of work early for all the girlie preppings (that i'm at a complete loss at how to do so i just wing it & hope for the best). i gave pregnant friend a call & last minute she decided to go tonight. she went to the only maternity shop in town & found a dress that works - yeah! i'm now looking forward to tonight, at least to more than just the cheesecake dessert bar (& so help those people if they don't have one!).

her dr said he'd be surprised if she held them in until monday....maybe we'll have babies tonight - how's that for exciting!

Ivan - 2a1

M couldn't remember tj boyfriend's name either, our memories of that time have fragmented over time. anyways she contacted the resident historian & alas, we have a name - Ivan.

thanks S!

M too for remembering the historian forgets nothing!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

oopsie - 2a

i forgot, no really i did, it wasn't on purpose that i left out - tj boyfriend.

no, not Chris (i'm ok with saying his name because i haven't been in contact with him since then). ok the the story on Chris - 2nd guy i slept with, cute, blonded, blue-eyed, white boy that could dance. the first, maybe 2nd time we had sex, he let out the HUGEST fart i had ever heard in my life (at least at that point, i am married to B & things have changed).

tj boyfriend who's name eludes me at this time but i'm sure someone (hello, M? yeah, i KNOW you know!) will help me out here....anywho, yes, i had a tj boyfriend. the language barrier was there, although i'm part hispanic & took spanish in hs my abilities have never been what i would like them to be (i'm talking spanish speaking people, keep on track, get your mind out of wherever you wondered off to!) & he only spoke spanish. we kissed, hung out & drank some together; he was a really nice boy. he was the only guy i ever cheated on & i broke up with him immediately & felt really bad about what i did.

i regret the fact that i cheated on someone but at the same time will never regret the path i chose. that's all i can say about that!

drunk stories - phase 2

in case you missed phase 1, it's here. that was hs, let's move on to the next chapter of my life which was sd & tj.
did i just say tj?
yup, i did, i'm going THERE, the initial place. ok, not physically, but we're taking a little voyage in time....

after 1 semester at local community college, i moved to sd to live with my best friends. it wasn't long before we discovered our proximity to tj; more importantly alcohol & all night music & dancing accessible to folks under 21. we would go often. ok, i don't think you are getting that so i'll spell it out for you - sometimes 4 times A WEEK. our money was for tj & burritos at 3am...sometimes 4 or 5am or even 7am.

we had oh so much fun, we always at the very least stayed in pairs, but some of the crazy shit we did & got into, WOW.

we drove our vehicles down there - don't tell me i can't drive, if i can drive in tj, i CAN drive mf'er!
we had our bartenders - yes our, they knew us (ok, it was by our fake tj names, but that's neither here nor there, mine was jennifer). we once went to one of their house's, it was by cemetery & it was kinda scary.
i used to help the dj with his music selection - it was all there, he just needed some assistance in the alternative arena.

a couple of crazy incidences - M & I are kinda pyromanics & we (at least i think it was 'we') accidently (of course) lit an ashtray on fire on our table, it was kinda exciting; we once saw a couple having sex on the dancefloor (no shit, totally going at it!); one of my friends opened the car door to puke not realizing we were flying down the freeway & someone else held her hair to make sure she didn't fall out.

that's all the craziness i can remember at this point in time, but i reserve the right to add a 'phase 2a, 2b' just in case something comes up.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


so there's this article about how women are "germier" then men & i feel compelled to comment on....

here's the deal, screw all your scientific bs, the reason women have "germy" hands is because men touch nothing other than themselves & the food they eat.

& no, typically they do NOT wash their hands after using the bathroom - i have conducted studies! i used to sit right outside the office's men's room & could hear when the faucet was turned on, it was RARE.

rollercoaster add on

i forgot to add to the rollercoaster list: the marine corp ball on friday.

i have to dress up & look all girlie, which will probably take all day & i may have to enlist assistance from several females nearby. i have the dress & the shoes, but the hair & the face, um, i'm at a loss.

i'll just go outside & yell "help!" to see who comes out, i mean i really do need help, it's just not an emergency...well, i guess that's debatable...

Obama it is

yesterday when i was driving Z home at the end of the day i was telling him that it was a special day & he told me he knew that it was "voting day". then he proceeded to tell me that he voted & John McCain was going to win. i was kinda surprised that i didn't lose control of the car & wreck into the curb or something, that somehow i managed to maintain my composure.

i didn't vote for Obama, so you can thank me for that because anyone whom i do vote for president doesn't win, ever. i wanted to be on Obama team, but honestly i wonder about him, questionable background in my opinion.

but here we are. he has promised change, i hope that change is good.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

last boarding call for the holiday rollercoaster

ok, so it started back in august. yes, i know most parents are thrilled when their kids start back in school; which to some degree we were but it wasn't a huge change in Z's schedule, other than the homework that kills us just a little tiny bit every single night. (oh, & he is doing better at his reading - YEAH!!!)

then there was labor day, that's all good, a couple of birthdays, & halloween just past yeah, today is election day whoohoo. now we begin the big steep climb into holiday season.
& i'd like to point out those lousy, money hungry grubbers at walmart for having christmas shit out BEFORE halloween people, please, i have enough pressure!

to complicate matters exponentially B & I just scheduled a little holiday trip down to mexico in between thanksgiving & christmas. stupid, i know. gluttons for punishment, yes, we are. no, i'm not being negative, i am the anti-cheerleader it's my responsibility to point these things out.

so yup, 2nd week in Dec were cruising it to baja. this took a lot of effort on my part to get B to realize a cruise was much different than being "on boat" military style sleeping in racks & all, people wouldn't pay for that shit. i have to make a dr appt so i can get some good no-puke medicine, just in case; certainly don't want to pay all that cash to be on a boat sick & missing all the good food.

then after christmas it's my mom's b-day, then it's our anniversary, then it's valentine's, then it's B's birthday & i can rest for minute.

Monday, November 3, 2008

election tomorrow

in case you hadn't noticed, i am not into all.
i love the fact that i can (& do) vote, however, i'm not savvy about it & i don't like being in areas where i'm ignorant.

with that being said, i just felt like i needed to make a post because history is being made people, tomorrow WE get to choose either an african-american president or a female vice president. to me that's pretty crazy, we're finally getting like progressive and everything.

so tomorrow should be an interesting day.

october in hindsight

i've been doing a lot of looking back over the month of october. this time last year B & I were getting better after a few months of unimaginable bad. it's been a year since Uncle R died & that still hurts...too.

i could drive myself completely mad (not that it would be a long drive, but please try & stay focused here!) trying to figure out what happened with B & I. where we went wrong, what happened, how we fixed, but i've learned it's just best for me to let it go, let it rest, it is the past. if i bring it up, i make part of the present & i do not want that.

when i think of my uncle, i think of holidays at nana's when i was a kid. i always thought my Uncle R was so handsome. he would dance with me in my nana's little kitchen with everyone around us.
i also think of the time my mom, B & I went to visit him. he took us to an awesome fish house, seriously authentic mexican style, yummy food! then, in his part of LA, the carts came by, something we had never witnessed.
yup, guys walking the streets with carts of different delicacies...if you hadn't noticed we are all about food. one cart had steamed corned, which normally one wouldn't think THAT impressive, but it's oh so different when you get from a guy off the street! they put butter, mayo (yes, don't question it!), salt, pepper & hot sauce & it was SO good.
then the sundae cart came by & yes, of course we had to participate in that too, because i told you we're all pigs, keep up!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

injun turtle

for halloween Z dressed up as a teenage mutant ninja turtle. i think it's funny that they're back in, that there's a new (relatively) movie out & the cartoon is on sat am's.

this year's costume got a run for it's money. at Z's after-school care place they had dress up day on thurs. i let him take the costume & the mask (but not the turtle shell) & when he came home he had red juice all over the front of it. thankfully it came out rather easily.

yesterday at school's party he made chocolate covered pretzels & replaced the juice spots with chocolate. i didn't think it was wise to attempt to clean that up, i figured it would end up spreading & looking like someone had pooped on him.

the trick or treating was ok last night. it's been an entire year (surprise) since the last one & he totally forgot how things went so at first when someone opened the door he started walking in & handing them his goody bag, like he was saying "i'll wait here while you fill this up." so we had to remind him to say trick or treat!

then he wouldn't say thank much that people giving out the candy would look at us so we would holler "thank you very much & have a nice halloween!" we were waiting for the kid to say it, my goodness it's not like he doesn't get reminded enough about it, you would think he would remember when he was given a handful of candy he would but noooo!

then he forgot to put his bag out for the treats & the people handing out the candy were confused by this. so we had to go through the entire routine a few times with him - ring the doorbell, say "trick or treat" or "happy halloween" when they open the door (not "hi"), then put your bag up, when they start to give you candy say "thank you" you don't say "trickortreat thankyou" when they open the door.

but we survived & he got a bag full of candy. many houses didn't participate & there were hardly any other kids out. B came home early so he could pass out candy & he said we only had ~4 knocks.

our last stop was at the neighbors & i brought home the baby. ok, she's not a baby, she's about 1 1/2, but she hadn't done any trick or treating so i brought her home to give her a few treats. B scared her when he opened the door & yelled "trick or treat" (thinking it was only Z & I). I told him "look what i got for a treat!" hahaha!