Sunday, September 30, 2007

about me

this is a work in progress:

* i've lived in california my entire life
* my parents were migrant workers; my father is caucasion, my mom is hispanic
* their divorce was final when i was 6, neither one ever re-married
* i am an only child
* when i was a kid, i wanted an older sister
* i haven't been to any of my class reunions because i wasn't ready to face some of the people that made my childhood/adolescence hell. i think i'm ready to attend my 20 yr though.
* i am a compulsive e-mail checker
* i'm a cancer through & through. i'm emotional, moody, guarded. i have few friends, but those who are, are dear to my heart & i protect them fiercely.
* many people think i'm quiet & shy, that's because they haven't seen the real me.
* when i met B, i had given up on boys, or thought i had.
* i believe B is my soulmate
* i love rain but dislike wind
* my drink of choice is vodka, i dislike beer & wine...sad, i know
* i can not stand cigarette smoke, i can feel my lungs constricting when i smell it
* i have the sensory skills of a bloodhound, it's not a good thing
* i'm horrible at any type of game & all sports
* every car i've ever owned (3) has been a stick shift, i'm worried my next one will have to be automatic beings my options were really limited the last time i got a car.
* i have a thing for stuff made out of glass, i like it very much
* i write right-handed but do pretty much everything else with my left side
* i have traveled to australia & japan
* i have extreme issues about speaking in front of a group
* every night i thank God for the day he's given me, for B, Z, my mom, my nana, my family & friends & everyone's health. & for saving my marriage.

Monday, September 17, 2007

honestly, i didn’t do drugs when i was pregnant

so we're driving home, B & i are talking, about what i don't remember but it has absolutely nothing to do with the following. as our conversation comes to a lul, Z says

"so when you're at the bottom of a lake....pause....and you open your mouth..........longgggg pauseeee...........the fishies.....pause....think your mouth is a you have to close your the fishies don't swim in there."

i have know idea where all that came from, but i related it the toilet scene in trainspotting. if you haven't seen that movie, watch it, it's a great druggie movie.

Friday, September 14, 2007

i'm a girl again...& it sucks

so after being pregnant i went on a form of b/c that stopped my period. life was good not having to worry about such things - packing daily supplies, or going on trips, spending the $$ on supplies, when to not wear white pants - no concerns just go on with life. guys don't have to worry about this crap. but my dr decided 4 years was long enough & i needed to switch b/c, so it's back.

i'm a girl again. i don't like this.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Dinosaur on my ass

so going through the regular morning routine Z passed out a few random hugs, not unusal. then as i'm about to walk out the door i stop to think about something & put my hands on my sides, then kinda slide them down a bit & notice something on the back of my shirt/pants area.
so i reach around & find a puffy dinosaur sticker on my ass (yellow stegosaurous, if you care to be specific).
i don't know what made me stop & put my hands on my sides, but thank goodness i did because i KNOW no one would have told me i had a dinosaur stuck to my ass & i would have gone around all day long thinking the extra attention i was getting was because i was having a good hair day or something!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

9/11 anniversary

the anniversary of 9/11/ you remember where you were when you first heard the news?

i was on my way to work, on the 78 east, taking the exit to 15 south when i switched the radio over to npr when the 2nd plane hit the 2nd tower & they announced this was no accident, we were under attack.
the 30 mile drive was strange, every one on the freeway was in shock & disbelief. at work we listened to the radio & checked the internet for updates as the day unfolded. my heart goes out to all those who lost loved ones at this time & in the ensuing wars.

the irony is this day is possibly the day my child was conceived -although Z was born at the end of May, he was early, he was due June 14th.