Tuesday, October 14, 2008

not looking forward

to the counseling appt for Z in the next few minutes....

we went back & forth over this last year, but then he seemed better. then he seemed worse. then he got suspended & we know we NEED to do this.

but it still doesn't feel good. i don't want to go. i feel like i'm going to be judged. that my parenting skills just aren't cutting it.

& although i originally thought taking Z to the counselor that i went to last year when B & I were having problems was a good idea, i no longer feel that way. i feel like the history she knows isn't truly representive of our home life, because when i was seeing her it was a really ugly time in our marriage. i hope she realizes that.

i hope she can help Z.

1 comment:

  1. i totally hear you on the feeling of being judged. i think most people automatically think of issues with children must go back to the parents being checked out of their parenting roles. but we both know that's not always the case.

    i'm sure she, as a professional, will be able to both see the problems that you guys were having and how far you have come to this point, in her assessment of what is going on with z today. if not, then maybe someone else will be better suited to dealing with you all on a clean slate. :-)

    take care and hang in there!

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