the downside

the downside to things being better, me feeling better is that i'm eating like a fricken ranchhand & have the stomach to prove it...just in time for the beach!

walmart bathroom

what's the deal with kids & public bathrooms?

Everytime we go to walmart, Z has to use the bathroom. There's only 1 stall & it's never clean, but yet we must visit it every trip. I always ask before we leave the house "are you hungry, are you thirsty, do you need to use the potty?" "No, No, No" is my answer in that little 5 yr old irritated voice.

So last night on a 10 minute walmart run, within minutes of walking inside (just long enough to get to the opposite side of the building from where the bathroom is) he states he needs to use the potty. Geez, we only came here for 2 items & I haven't even gotten 1 of them!

We rush to the bathroom because you never know how much time you have. Then we get in the stall & pulls down his pants & turns around to sit - AHHHHH, NOOO, DON'T SIT!!! He only had to pee, so why he wanted to sit I don't know, but there was crap on the toilet!

So then my tirade begins about how I hate using public bathrooms.....& is now documented for you to enjoy

to the sky

Z tells me he loves me to the sky. Then he says the sky never ends, it just keeps on going...isn't that the sweetest thing ever from a 5 yr old?

therapy results

I need to feel appreciated & loved for who I am...repeat...

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how far can one bend to please another person before they just break? how much can one change to please another person but still maintain their own persona? why is middle ground still not enough? there is no winning this game

progress

progress is slow when you make 1 step forward, 2 steps back

normal

I just wish my life would go back to normal...but there's no such thing as going back right?

Z & the wipies

i went out of town for a few days for work & when i returned i noticed the lid on the container of bleach wipes i keep in the bathroom was open. so i found Z & asked him if he had been using the cleaning wipes. (i thought he might have been cleaning with them because he likes to that.) he said his container of wipies was empty so he had been using the bleach wipes to clean his bottom! AHHH - that had to hurt!

i think the funniest part of this story is that when i told M about it she asked why i didn't ask B about the wipes first. i told her B would have no idea what i was talking about...you know bleach wipes, for cleaning....no wouldn't have a clue!