iron man, the song this time

the other day Z comes home singing "ta na nanana tanana" ok, forgive me because i don't know how to write it out in a way that you can get it, but he was humming iron man, well enough for me to recognize it. so i waited around a bit, then he finally sang the words "i am iron man, am i dead or alive?"...with a little adlibbing.

he said he was told not to sing it (but he still was)

soundtrack to my life, at least part I

remember when i found the goldmine, well, although that was a good find, i can not believe what i stumbled upon yesterday. mother-in-law is coming to visit soon, so that means the house is getting a thorough cleaning. (M i know you came to visit not that long ago & i did clean the house then too, just not to the level necessary for mother-in-law.) off in the corner is a little table & underneath are a few old vcr tapes stacked; most are cartoons, etc for Z but a few are mine one being 16 candles. i know B has been pushing for some time to get rid of the vcr, honestly how often do we use, hardly ever but after yesterday it just might get used daily!

so the tape has "yo mtv raps" in M handwriting (i hope i asked you permission before overwriting your tape M, if not i apologize your stuff is gone, like 17 or 18 years ago gone...). then in my handwriting it says "juniors" so the tape is one i made for when i worked at may company. they made a wall of tvs, gave us a vcr & one (ONE) tape of videos to play over & over & over & over. the music wasn't horrible that i remember, the only song i can recall is one by billy idol.

so i made my own tape, back in the day MTV had this novel approach where, they actually played music on their channel not BS. MTV used to be a really good thing, so here's the list of videos i found. the quality isn't that great, it is almost 20 years old, but i was grinning from ear to ear. Z was in his room as punishment for something & i told him he could come out & listen to the music for a music appreciation class!

So in Love - OMD a classic
Heartbreak Beat by Psychedelic Furs, love Richard Butler's voice here
Each Time You Break my Heart - Nick Kamen, not so alternative, but a good watch! there was a link on utube, but it was a different video, this link matches, however, if you check out utube, there's also a Levi commercial he did - Hot, very hot!
People are People - Depeche Mode live, wow, awesome, Dave Gahan looks so young, bleach tipped hair
I Go Crazy When I'm Without You - Flesh for Lulu this band was so underrated in the 80s, they also had a really great song called "Postcards from Paradise"
Hot, Hot, Hot - the Cure i believe this song was written about Robert Smith's experiences with drugs. this was the first concert i went to in sd with by best friend E.
Bedbugs & Ballyhoo - Echo & the Bunnymen, love it. Echo first caught my attn in Lost Boys with a remake of the Door's "People are Strange". oh, the link has a few other fanastic Echo songs! yeah!
Perfect Kiss - New Order, an extreme favorite back in the day
Beds are Burning - Midnight Oil, they're first mainstream song. link is to their website with a list of videos.
Strangelove - DM, funny to see all the women they have parading around, who are they trying to fool? oh, went to this concert w/E too.
All in my Mind - Love & Rockets another great band, love many of their songs. saw them in concert too, lead singer was an ass on stage though. L&R opened for Orgy (the band) who did an edgy remake of "Blue Monday" which i liked. they put on a good show, the video doesn't do Jay Gordon (lead singer) justice though, he's a performer, also very hot! found it live
Milky Way - the Church, "reptile" is a good one too
How Soon is Now? - the Smiths, love, love, LOVE this song!
Suspicion - Gene Loves Jezabel, good song, "Motion of Love" & "Desire" were also very good
Behind the Wheel - DM
Bottom Line - Big Audio Dynamite, start there, also worth listening to: E=MC2, the Glove, C'mon Every Beat Box,
There's a Light - Smiths, love, love, LOVE this one too!
World Shut your Mouth - Julian Cope
Need You Tonight - INXS, aw the first of many to come...Michael Hutchence looking really good, telling me he needs me tonight because he's not sleeping. oh & this is the version w/mediate at the end. I got so caught up in it i forgot to put the link in there!
Suedehead - Morrissey, because he's so much fun!
Mandinka - Sinead O'Connor before the Pope incident & she was just singing
Blood & Roses - the Smithereens, a great band
Victoria - the Fall, very british
Mirror People - Love & Rockets
Blue Monday - New Order version
New Sensation - INXS Michael in a suit w/a pony tail which today looks a little gay, but back then was very goof!
It's my Life - Talk Talk, before Gwyen Stafani did it
Trash City - Joe Strummer, this is a great song, it was the theme song for a movie starring Keanu Reeves. i haven't seen it since i was a teenager, need to watch it again. this isn't the video i have, it's a tribute to JS who died in 2002. i couldn't locate the correct one, i guess it's rather obscure...
Only a Memory - Smithereens
Happy Birthday - Altered Images, everyone at worked hated this video, they didn't get that it was from 16 candles - losers! it can get a bit annoying but come on i hear so much worse on the radio!
Inside Out - Mighty Lemon Drops
Listen Like Thieves - INXS, from before they were popular, sweet! i could only find a live version, not the video i have, so will have to link later.
Roxanne - the Police, scratch that, it's Sting, solo just him & a guitar, oh & clothes, i mentioned that because even B was "wowed" by him. amazing!
Hands on Me - Sinead O'Connor featuring MC Lyte
Dead Heart - Midnight Oil, see link above
Good Times - INXS & Jimmy Barnes from the movie Lost Boys
I Got You - Split Enz
Guns in the Sky - INXS, think i got a thing MC? yup
What You Need - INXS, wow, remembering that black figure of MC back when they were so new it made me sad to think of what his future could have been, what we missed.
The One Thing - INXS this was my introduction to INXS (when i thought it was pronounced in-inks-es), i've loved this song from the first time i heard it, make sure to also listen to "Dancing on a Jetty", "Mystify", "Original Sin"
Tonight - the Cars, i'm not sure why this is here, it doesn't fit in, so i'm not linking it...um, the cars was the first cassette i bought to go in the walkman my dad bought me way back when
Locomtion - OMD
People Are People - DM, yeah we already did this one, but hey, it's DM so why not! besides, it fades into glorious
Question of Lust - DM, Martin all S&M'ed out, but still a FANTASTIC song! while you're there check out "Black Celebration" & "the Sun & the Rainfall" good stuff before they were popular
West End Girls - Pet Shop Boys, a definitive song of the 80s, it was good before they played it one trillion times...
Suspicious Minds - a fabulous Elvis re-make done by FYC, f*** you C***, er I mean Fine Young Cannibals. watch the guitar/bass/whatever player on the left dance, it's fricken hilarious! FYC was a really good group, while you're there check out "Johnny Come Home", "I'm not the Man I used to Be" & "Ever Fallen in Love"
Here I Go Again - Force MD's doesn't fit in, but i really liked this song & "Tender Love"
Digging Your Scene - Blow Monkeys, not really a band i dug
Perfect Way - Scritti Politti, i loved this song the first time i heard, too bad that was all they had to offer...
Wham Rap - hahaha! well, what can i say, it was before we all figured out George was gay, i remember a friend having the hugest crush on Andrew Ridgely & who could forget Pepsi & Shirley, oops, you did?
You Spin Me Round - Dead or Alive, i liked them way back before they were wedding singer material, i had 2 cassettes & knew every word to every song...
So in Love - OMD
68 Guns - The Alarm
I Send a Message - INXS
Sunday Bloody Sunday - U2
Impressed - Charlie Sexton
What you Need - INXS
Get the Balance Right - DM
Everything Counts - DM
Music That You Can Dance To - Sparks
Just Can't Get Enough - DM
Love In Itself - DM
After the Fire - U2
Let's Go to Bed - the Cure
A Night Like This - the Cure
Planet Earth - Duran Duran
Girls on Film - Duran Duran
People Are People - DM
I Confess - General Public
Tenderness - General Public
How to be a Millionaire - ABC
Beat so Lonely - Charlie Sexton
No One is to Blame - HoJo
Listen Like Thieves - INXS
Stay - Oingo Boingo

falling down a mountain, end up kissing dirt

ok, it wasn't a mountain.

Z & I took L-bird for a walk. we started to sprint & well, L-bird has barely learned how to walk on a leash anything beyond that was new territory for the girl. so when we picked up speed, she got the forward part, that's in her nature, but she was spastic, just all over the place & although i kept tugging the leash over to the right, she was still everywhere. i stepped on a paw & that was the end of it...in slow motion of course...

& it wasn't dirt, it was pavement.

i stepped on her paw with my right foot, my next step with my left foot was off, i attempted to regain my balance & thought i had it, but then the following right step was when i knew i was going down. & before i knew it i was splattered on the pavement. luckily it was almost dark, so no one else was out & i don't think anyone saw me. i looked up immediately & called to Z to make sure he stopped & waited for me to see if i could pick myself up. then i hear voices in the open garage just a few feet away from me, so there was no time for games, i quickly picked myself up & started walking as if i hadn't been laying on the sidewalk in front of their house. luckily there's a mailbox right there so if they heard any commotion they probably thought i was checking the mail, not inspecting the pavement.

i ended up with a scabbed knee & i managed to scrap nailpolish off 1/2 my left toe as i slid across the pavement.

oh & as for the song reference (in case you didn't get it, it's INXS), it's a little foreshadowing for the next post, see you there.

Z & counseling

last friday i went to Z's school & requested he meet w/the school counselor. we've had quite a few issues w/him at home & i'm at my wits end with this kid. he's so different from me, SO, SO different. at the end of meeting the counselor asked "what did i want most?" to come out of their meetings. the answer, "for my child to respect my authority because if he doesn't at 6, what am i going to do when he's 16?"
he met with Z that afternoon & when i quizzed Z about it he only said they talked about family.

on monday evening Z had another melt down so on tuesday i called the counselor to let him know about it. he said he would call Z in that day & we talked some. he told me in Z's view, i'm at the bottom of the totem pole so it doesn't bother him to yell at me because i'm beneath him. then he asked me if i thought Z respected me, he asked with trepidation, it's a harsh question i know, but i told him honestly i wasn't sure.
tues afternoon i probed Z about meeting the counselor; he said they discussed treating others the way we want to be treated.

last night we had a bit of a battle again, lying over brushing his teeth, he still argued back a few times, ended up in the corner for 15 minutes & was threatened with a belt spanking (by B, because mine aren't hard enough (Z's words)).
when all was said & done i asked him why doesn'the just listen to me? why does he have to argue? why do we have to threaten a spanking? why can't he do what's asked of him & everyone be happy?

being a parent is way harder than i thought it would be & my mom, she got off SO easy...B's mom on the other hand is probably going straight to heaven after raising those 2 boys.

note to mother nature

i'm really sorry about saying that thing about summer being over, please forgive me.
yesterday when i got in the car after work it was 118!!!
summer is so not over, we still have the entire month of september to sweat profusely...

2,500+

i printed a document that was over 2,500 pages; it took the entire day, stopped every few minutes for more paper & all 4 print cartridges had to be replaced (at different intervals of course).
if i have to edit it at any point in the future, i'm going to cry...

hey dumbass, it was your anniversary 2 days ago

that's a note to self...
B & I consider Aug 24, 1996 (the day we met) more of an anniversary than our wedding day. as he puts it the meeting was by chance, the wedding, well, once the meeting happened, the wedding was going to happen, it was just a matter of time.
(sweet huh?)
the problem with that is there's no certificate for me to go check the date!

& by the time B & I met, i had given up up remembering all our couple firsts...you know, first date, first kiss, first blah, blah, blah...
i got tired of remembering all those dates, only for it to cause me pain in the future realizing that date no longer matter, that person was no longer a part of my life.

i bought the anniversary card a few weeks ago, i know the anniversary is aug 20 something. i couldn't remember the year, i thought we were on 13, but he corrected me that it was only 12. i thought the day was either the 26th or 28th so last night when we were out for a walk i asked & he laughed & said "it was yesterday". so i burst out laughing, funny that no feelings were hurt.
things are so different from last year.

i love you B!

napster bad

if you never saw this, it's fantastic!

i hadn't watched it in many years, but thought of it when i found some old disks of downloaded music from back in the glorious days of napster. unfortunately the music was unretrievable, i'm sure metallica has something to do with that....f-ing lars!