Z got up & snuggled a bit, then needed his "break-chess" & toons.
once B & I got up i made french toast for Z's 2nd break-chess. he says it's the best break-chess ever. we took it easy around the house.
ok that's a lie, i cleaned like a mad-woman. i hate sundays. hate them because i feel the pressure of monday from the minute i'm conscious, not even fully awake, i'm thinking of everything that i need to do before i'm able to get back into bed & relax. yeah, even though i had clean bathrooms, vacuumed & even dusted on friday, i still felt like the place was a disaster. after the week at the beach & being gone last weekend, the glossing wasn't enough.
B could tell i was on the verge of losing it, so he helped me relax & we decided to not invite anyone over after all. that relieved a lot of the pressure. i got my excessive cleaning done & all my hand laundry is washed. good, but now i have about 20 shirts & 3 or 4 pair of pants that need to be ironed!
so i'm content, all is well, got the boy washed, read & in bed by 8:30. finally have a minute to get on the computer & spread my girl cooties (ie, load beach pic's on the computer finally) when my dad calls....ick.
sorry, but yes, those are my real feelings. how weird is it that he calls me on fathers' day? (& that he can't remember when my birthday is? oh, but i do have to say he was REALLY close on Z's & i do appreciate that.) B picked up the phone, he spoke w/my father more than i did (if you think i'm short on words with you, you should hear me on the phone w/my father). then he asks to speak to Z. hello, it's 9pm on a sunday night & he's 6, no, he's sleeping.
my relationship with my father isn't the greatest, never has been. do i think i'm missing out on anything?
no.
if my father was a different person, probably. our relationship is what it is.
i don't hate him, he's never done anything bad, he just was never there so there wasn't an opportunity for a relationship to exist.
now as an adult, i just think he's a strange man. after becoming a parent myself, i understand him even less.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
weekend review
thank goodness for flex fridays, they are SO good.
friday morning got up, pulled weeds & washed my car. cleaned the house some & B fixed breakfast. relaxed some in the afternoon, Z had some buddies over so not too relaxing. oh watched pride & prejudice, good one. then washed B's truck that evening.
sat i had to train new hire. unfortunately what we both expected it to be a couple (ie 2) hours at most, but it ended up being 4. then B had to bring up the fact that she was probably being paid OT & making more than me, which was just salt in the wound.
B & Z went to go watch the new Hulk movie while i trained. when i finally made it home we went out to McDonald's because Z had asked to go, so i asked if that was going to be his father's day treat & he said yup.
so we went & ate, then Z played some & we ran a few errands & came home. Z played around some & i felt bad about missing so much in the morning i laid down with him & read...& fell asleep, then he fell asleep too. i woke up when babysitter arrived...oops.
B & I went out for French dinner. it was nice, good food & better atmosphere (you would never know you were here). town has a new thing "wine walks" so after dinner we walked around the shops. we aren't wine drinkers so we didn't partake in that, but we did find a sofa/chair/ottomon on consignment that we liked so much we ended up buying (talk about not being a cheap date).
friday morning got up, pulled weeds & washed my car. cleaned the house some & B fixed breakfast. relaxed some in the afternoon, Z had some buddies over so not too relaxing. oh watched pride & prejudice, good one. then washed B's truck that evening.
sat i had to train new hire. unfortunately what we both expected it to be a couple (ie 2) hours at most, but it ended up being 4. then B had to bring up the fact that she was probably being paid OT & making more than me, which was just salt in the wound.
B & Z went to go watch the new Hulk movie while i trained. when i finally made it home we went out to McDonald's because Z had asked to go, so i asked if that was going to be his father's day treat & he said yup.
so we went & ate, then Z played some & we ran a few errands & came home. Z played around some & i felt bad about missing so much in the morning i laid down with him & read...& fell asleep, then he fell asleep too. i woke up when babysitter arrived...oops.
B & I went out for French dinner. it was nice, good food & better atmosphere (you would never know you were here). town has a new thing "wine walks" so after dinner we walked around the shops. we aren't wine drinkers so we didn't partake in that, but we did find a sofa/chair/ottomon on consignment that we liked so much we ended up buying (talk about not being a cheap date).
Thursday, June 12, 2008
weird lady
weird lady at new job
-ok, yes, she's at one end of the building & i'm at the other, but she will call me to talk to me, really, it's not THAT far, it's a small building
-one time she called me & i was at the back desk so it took me a minute to hear the ring & get to my phone to answer it & she told me "this is YOUR phone, YOU need to answer it" - duh! but thanks for the heads up otherwise i would have just let the mf'r ring & wondered what that sound was
-she told me i need to organize the supplies in my office - go away, my office, my supplies
-there was a small cactus near my desk & co-worker (S) told me i could have it because guy before my had left it there. then she told me weird lady had taken her's, that she (weird lady) wanted her plant to have a friend! ok, let's review, weird lady took the plant from someone there, but left an abandoned plant to die...
-one more, the other day i walked down the hall to use the bathroom, but she walked in before i got there. not a big deal i turned around & was almost back to my office when she hollars at me "DID YOU NEED TO USE THE BATHROOM?"....yeah, thanks!
-ok, yes, she's at one end of the building & i'm at the other, but she will call me to talk to me, really, it's not THAT far, it's a small building
-one time she called me & i was at the back desk so it took me a minute to hear the ring & get to my phone to answer it & she told me "this is YOUR phone, YOU need to answer it" - duh! but thanks for the heads up otherwise i would have just let the mf'r ring & wondered what that sound was
-she told me i need to organize the supplies in my office - go away, my office, my supplies
-there was a small cactus near my desk & co-worker (S) told me i could have it because guy before my had left it there. then she told me weird lady had taken her's, that she (weird lady) wanted her plant to have a friend! ok, let's review, weird lady took the plant from someone there, but left an abandoned plant to die...
-one more, the other day i walked down the hall to use the bathroom, but she walked in before i got there. not a big deal i turned around & was almost back to my office when she hollars at me "DID YOU NEED TO USE THE BATHROOM?"....yeah, thanks!
update UM
talked with mom last night:
Tuesday night Uncle M was released from SD hospital & sent via ambulance to a hospital in the valley. he made the trip safely.
the plan is for him to stay at the hospital a few days then go home.
Tuesday night Uncle M was released from SD hospital & sent via ambulance to a hospital in the valley. he made the trip safely.
the plan is for him to stay at the hospital a few days then go home.
access finally - pt 2
although i have internet access, my computer for accessing the internet was dead. (i have 2 computers at work, one for working, one piece of crap for internet.)
there's a running joke around the office about how i brought a black cloud & have broken everything around me....although that computer was broken before i got there. the guy who worked there before me had problems with it but didn't bother getting it fixed, so the 1st time we tried to turn it on, blue screen on death & that was it.
last week we called for computer help. they said they would be out Fri to pick up & return it on Tues. Fri boss let me out early & closed the office. Mon no one came by or called. Tues i called & asked what was up. they said they ran a diagnostic remotely & the computer needed a new hard drive that was on order. on Weds the guy showed up to take my computer & said he'd be back Thurs. true to his word he did, HOWEVER, the darn thing wouldn't take my stupid card!
although i had a card that worked, a computer that worked, my keyboard wouldn't take my card. close but yet so far! he returned shortly before the end of the day & i finally, finally, finally have internet access at my desk.
watch out internet, on Monday we're ON! did you miss me?
there's a running joke around the office about how i brought a black cloud & have broken everything around me....although that computer was broken before i got there. the guy who worked there before me had problems with it but didn't bother getting it fixed, so the 1st time we tried to turn it on, blue screen on death & that was it.
last week we called for computer help. they said they would be out Fri to pick up & return it on Tues. Fri boss let me out early & closed the office. Mon no one came by or called. Tues i called & asked what was up. they said they ran a diagnostic remotely & the computer needed a new hard drive that was on order. on Weds the guy showed up to take my computer & said he'd be back Thurs. true to his word he did, HOWEVER, the darn thing wouldn't take my stupid card!
although i had a card that worked, a computer that worked, my keyboard wouldn't take my card. close but yet so far! he returned shortly before the end of the day & i finally, finally, finally have internet access at my desk.
watch out internet, on Monday we're ON! did you miss me?
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
baby bird
the other day Z found a baby bird in the backyard. it had fallen out of its' nest but was still alive. i stood watch over it to make sure Lady would leave it alone & told Z to go get B. Lady has found baby birds in the yard a few times, but now that we have grass this one had a chance (softer landing & hidden from her).
B got a step stool & a little hand shovel & we explained to Z that we couldn't touch it with our hands because then the momma bird wouldn't take care of it anymore. B placed the ugly featherless little thing back in the eves but it fell right back out so he had to do it again. this time he tried to push it over to the side & we all hoped momma bird would come back & take care of her baby.
afterwards Z told B how happy he was to save the birdie but B told him he was really the one that saved it because Z found it & told us about it. he was really proud of himself.
the next day after work we went to check on baby bird. unfortunately Z & i found it in the grass dead. we don't know if momma came back or if it just fell out on its' own again, but there was nothing we could do, it had been out in the sun & heat all day.
B got a step stool & a little hand shovel & we explained to Z that we couldn't touch it with our hands because then the momma bird wouldn't take care of it anymore. B placed the ugly featherless little thing back in the eves but it fell right back out so he had to do it again. this time he tried to push it over to the side & we all hoped momma bird would come back & take care of her baby.
afterwards Z told B how happy he was to save the birdie but B told him he was really the one that saved it because Z found it & told us about it. he was really proud of himself.
the next day after work we went to check on baby bird. unfortunately Z & i found it in the grass dead. we don't know if momma came back or if it just fell out on its' own again, but there was nothing we could do, it had been out in the sun & heat all day.
Monday, June 9, 2008
sd trip
made it to Mom's friday night. Sat we went to the hospital. i guess i had a better idea of what to expect, so to me Uncle M didn't look as bad as i thought but to B he looked worse.
yes, he looks very frail. the dr's said the cancer has basically consumed him, but he's very coherent & he wants to communicate (writing, can't speak), but more than anything he wants to go home.
Z was full of piss & vinegar so we only stayed a few hours at the hospital then had to get the kid out in the fresh air so he could run around.
Sun morning we went back to the hospital to visit Uncle M before we headed back home. His left cheek was still swollen; they said it's excess fluid building up. he shook my hand before i left & squeezed it tight.
i started to cry as i left the room because i think this will probably be the last time i see him alive. it's sad to see my Uncle in this state & i feel really bad for Aunt O, she's never been alone. i know my Uncle will fight every step of the way to stay with her as long as possible.
yes, he looks very frail. the dr's said the cancer has basically consumed him, but he's very coherent & he wants to communicate (writing, can't speak), but more than anything he wants to go home.
Z was full of piss & vinegar so we only stayed a few hours at the hospital then had to get the kid out in the fresh air so he could run around.
Sun morning we went back to the hospital to visit Uncle M before we headed back home. His left cheek was still swollen; they said it's excess fluid building up. he shook my hand before i left & squeezed it tight.
i started to cry as i left the room because i think this will probably be the last time i see him alive. it's sad to see my Uncle in this state & i feel really bad for Aunt O, she's never been alone. i know my Uncle will fight every step of the way to stay with her as long as possible.
15/215 split
when we get to the 15/215 split in the road Z knows were close to Grammie's.
really we aren't, but he recognizes the spot & everytime we pass there he says we're close.
this is the same spot where we first saw the fires when we went to Uncle R's funeral back in October, so it's made an impression on me as well. i can't drive through it without remembering that time.
really we aren't, but he recognizes the spot & everytime we pass there he says we're close.
this is the same spot where we first saw the fires when we went to Uncle R's funeral back in October, so it's made an impression on me as well. i can't drive through it without remembering that time.
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